Back

I know I have not written in awhile but things have been crazy in my life. With DH gone for work out of state thing began to spin slowly out of control. I began to feel lost and wasn’t sure where things were going anymore. We ended up taking a break from DD.

I have learned from the last few months that when you are made to submissive
(whether it is a deep desire rarely spoken of or something that anyone can see) when you begin to deny those feelings things will begin to spin faster and faster out of control. Things got worse and worse between until we began to wonder if it was over, if we were done.

I am so thankful for two stubborn people who love each other and refuse to give up! We began to talk and to look deeply at what was wrong and how we each were feeling. We realized that when things began to get crazy instead of stopping DD we needed to step it up. We need to become more involved in DD.

I realized that DD is one of those things in my life that I need. It grounds me and allows me to know where I belong. I know what my job is in my world and how to interact with the one I love the most. When we began to lose it I no longer felt secure. I felt like I was losing myself and that caused me to spin wildly out of control. That was because I was losing myself, why I no longer knew where I belonged. Being submissive, is part of how I was born, it is a part of who I am, so when I left it behind, I was leaving a piece of myself behind. I was tossing a piece of myself out.

I know now that I can’t change it, I can’t fight it and I won’t be ashamed of it!

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My First switching

I received my first switching this last weekend. I hadn’t really done anything wrong but we needed to reconnect. We were camping so there were not a lot of options so he decided to go with a switch. I tried to talk him into just using his hand but failed miserably. Since this was the first time I had felt a switch and I wasn’t in trouble he allowed me to keep my panties up (rarely happens) and he didn’t use full force.

It still stung like the dickens!!! I have always had a fear of the belt and the switch but he had never used one before. All I know is that I hope I never have to experience one when I am in trouble. The sting was awful and the way it would wrap around and strike other parts was awful.

So I promise to be a very good girl from here on out!

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Here we go…again

Okay, it has been forever since I have had a moment to post anything.  Between work, home school and computer problems life has been crazy.  I think things are going to slow down now.  I am happy to be back.  As things have been crazy it has only reinforced for me how much I need this life style.  I need him to be strong and to place those walls and boundaries around me.  I think I am beginning to accept that this is just who I am, how I was created.  It doesn’t have to seem normal to others, it doesn’t have to “fit in” with the rest of society to be right for me.  I have decided that I am just going to revile in what works for me and forget what I am “suppose” to do or know.

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Growing Up

I am really struggling with allowing my oldest son(13) to grow up and beyond me.  I feel like he is reaching the point where he no longer looks to me to be the guiding influence in his life.  Now I know that this a normal growth point but I can’t help but feel like I am no longer important in his life.  I know this really has nothing to do with DD but it does have to do with my life and I know that I am not the only mom who has had to go through this.    J and I have knocked heads over this a few times, not to the point of discipline but I have come to realize that as long as I was the main guiding voice for the children it was good but when that was no longer the case I began to question every decision that he makes in regards to our son.  I am fighting for control of it even though I know it’s not for the best.

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Valentines Day

So DH and I are going out of town this weekend.  Just the two of us, I am so thrilled.  I love spending time with him alone.  Plus it’s time to spend some fun alone time having amazing loud sex which is hard to do with 3 kids in the house all the time.  We really need this tine to reconnect.

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No Apologies

After coming across what seemed to be the 4000th or so post on someone’s blog starting with “I’m sorry I haven’t posted in a while.” I decided it is time to rethink what makes a good blog and the expectations that have come to be part of it. I am thinking that no one should utter those words again . . .and with that thought I give you Blogging Without Obligation. If you feel the same way feel free to grab the logo, make a logo or whatever you would like to do! I release all the logos, thoughts and words mentioned here about this concept into the public domain. Take the idea and run with it. . .or walk away. It is all good.

• Because you shouldn’t have to look at your blog like it is a treadmill.

• Because its okay to just say what you have to say. If that makes for a long post, fine. Short post, fine. Frequent post, fine. Infrequent post, fine.

• Because its okay to not always be enthralled with the sound of your own typing.

• Because sometimes less is more.

• Because only blogging when you feel truly inspired keeps up the integrity of your blog.

• Because they are probably not going to inscribe your stat, link and comment numbers on your tombstone.

• Because for most of us blogging is just a hobby. A way to express yourself and connect with others. You should not have to apologize for lapses in posts. Just take a step back and enjoy life, not everything you do has to be “bloggable”.

• Because if you blog without obligation you will naturally keep your blog around longer, because it won’t be a chore. Plus, just think you will be doing your part to eradicate post pollution. One post at a time. . .

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New Paddle

So we got a new paddle this week,  a friend of mine made it and out of respect for the fact that I am a girly girl she painted it pink and placed pretty butterfly’s and ladybugs on it.  I love things that show off I am a girl but this was the first time I have had a paddle that showed it.  It also creates quite a sting.  so whats your favorite implement?

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CDD and kids

So this is a big issue in most households and one with having 3 kids ourselves we have had to deal with.  We are not the kind of couple where we wait until the kids are all out of the house, we have tried and just doesn’t really work for us.  So we have to try and figure out how to do this with children. We have come up with a number of ways and I thought I would share them below.

1. Quite Implements-There are a number of implements that can produce quite a sting with relatively little noise.

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Cool Give away

I don’t do this kind of stuff often but here is a link to a really cool give away.  You do have to be a member at fet life but it is free click here to enter contest

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Adding a page

I have added a page to the site that lists spanking sites and blogs that I enjoy. Please take a moment to check it out. Also I will be uploading a video from Cali Cutie Spanking within the next few days please take a moment to check it out it is a good example of what a DD marriage looks like. This is a couple who truly love each other.

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