So like the titled said in course of the last two days I have had my bottom blistered. Last night I got stubborn about the spanking he wanted to give and it became a battle of wills. I was not physically fighting the spanking but I was emotionally fighting it. I was determined not to make sound or let him know how bad it was hurting. So he spanked and then sent me to the corner then called me back and spanked some more. I was still not crying at that point so he stopped and began rubbing my back and to be honest I was thinking HA HA I won this one. Then he starts to reiterate what he was thinking and how my attitude and behavior was hurting the family! Okay , not fair then he picks up the paddle and starts in again. That’s when I break and finally start crying. So yes my bottom was well blistered last night and I am sitting very gingerly but biy I needed it.
Then this afternoon we were talking and I start putting myself down again. So then he decides that I need to repeat a certain positive phrase about myself and I just couldn’t do it. So what does he do? He gets out the paddle and proceeds o redden my bottom again. I have a feeling that this may be a thing that happens often in the future as he wants me to start seeing myself in a positive light. Oh my poor red and sore bottom.
Yet I wouldn’t want it any other way, I need him to paddle me and to care what I think about myself enough that even when my bottom is already throbbing and very very sore he doesn’t hesitate to do it again if needed.
I commend your husband, self criticism is a huge pet peeve of mine as well. I hope you hold your chin up and learned your lesson…..Lance
lance,
Thanks I am learning haven’t said anything negative about myself in two days and have even been able to repeat positive things about myself after him. So I hope I learned it also.
I paddle my wife too when she puts herself down. “Fat, ugly, stupid” those are curse words in my home and not tolerated.
LS
It seemed to work I haven’t really had this since then.